I always have asked this question to myself several times, what if I never get better. I bet that is a question every individual who is addicted and the parent of an addict has to ask themselves probably more than once.
I admit I no longer struggle daily but it took a lot of effort in dealing with addiction issues which involved a reflection of me. I started engaging in weekends sports activities, which was my best position, I adapted myself to get over it
It was my failure to accept reality that caused much heartache and grief to my family. They were struggling with my problem; there was a desperation and hopelessness seen among them which I failed to understand myself. They were often looking for answers for several unanswered questions.
I learnt myself to understand and deal with addiction. It is about dealing with a disease and me than dealing with a problem in life. I never had thought that I would see the day that there was an ending to it. I felt that I was lost somewhere or stuck in infinity somewhere far away from the reality, wondering around aimlessly, roaming in the pitch black disconnected from reality. It took a while for me to realize what reality is. I was roaming and wondering around aimlessly in a lost world.
I don’t know how I woke up to reality. I don’t know how my eyes opened up for the first time. It was more like a miracle for me. Life changed a lot for me, my family and friends helped and supported in this and also forgave mefor the hurt caused by this deception.
There are several groups such as alcoholicsanonymous, narcoticananymous which help in recovery for the individual and is also a good choice for families in dealing with the problem. It was a strange and surreal moment to recover. After a stay in the de-addiction centre, it was good to go home. But one heals better at home. Going home is a good idea when one has a good supporting family to take care of.